In My Father’s Arms

I will never forget that day I climbed into my father’s lap and asked him why we were not packing his things in boxes. I was five  years old and didn’t fully understand what was going on. But I was observant. I knew enough to know that we weren’t packing his things. I looked him square in the eyes as he gave me a half-truth. The army wouldn’t let him go yet. He still had another year of service left at Fort Leavenworth. I will never forget looking into his eyes that day and seeing the heartbreak pooled there. It would be years later that my mother would reveal the full truth to me. She had every intention of filing for divorce that year. I am so thankful she didn’t. He may have been gone for that one year but by the grace of God, he won my mother’s heart back and is still here with us today.

I don’t know if it was because of that ‘lost’ year or those few scary times when we thought we might lose him to one health problem or another; but to this day my favorite place to be is in my father’s arms.

There is truly nothing like the sound of my father’s heartbeat.

The sound of his heartbeat takes away all the fear and melts away the stress. There, I am safe and secure. I’m a daddy’s girl through and through.

As much as my earthly father loves me, there will be and are days when he will fail me. I will be let down. Promises will be broken. His arms will fail me. He won’t always be there to catch me when I fall. I won’t always have the sound of his heartbeat.

But there is One whose arms are everlasting.

Deuteronomy 33:26-27New King James Version (NKJV)

26 There is no one like the God of Jeshurun (the upright one),
Who rides the heavens to help you,
And in His excellency on the clouds.
27 The eternal God is your refuge,
And underneath are the everlasting arms;
He will thrust out the enemy from before you,
And will say, ‘Destroy!’

My heavenly Father desires me to depend on His everlasting arms more than I desire my earthly fathers arms.

Everything I need can only be found in my heavenly Father’s everlasting arms.

Psalm 16

Preserve me, O God, for in You I put my trust.

O my soul, you have said to the Lord,
“You are my Lord,
My goodness is nothing apart from You.”
As for the saints who are on the earth,
“They are the excellent ones, in whom is all my delight.”

Their sorrows shall be multiplied who hasten after another god;
Their drink offerings of blood I will not offer,
Nor take up their names on my lips.

O Lord, You are the portion of my inheritance and my cup;
You maintain my lot.
The lines have fallen to me in pleasant places;
Yes, I have a good inheritance.

I will bless the Lord who has given me counsel;
My heart also instructs me in the night seasons.
I have set the Lord always before me;
Because He is at my right hand I shall not be moved.

Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoices;
My flesh also will rest in hope.
10 For You will not leave my soul in Sheol,
Nor will You allow Your Holy One to see corruption.
11 You will show me the path of life;
In Your presence is fullness of joy;
At Your right hand are pleasures forevermore.



Erase the Line

“I want my thoughts to move into actions that speak life.”

I have been listening to this song a lot lately. A lot. On repeat.

It’s one of those songs that really hits you right between the eyes and gives you a solid kick in the pants at the same time.

Broken Bread

“May I be broken bread, may I be poured out wine
May I incarnate, Your kindness Lord”

In saying this what we’re really saying is I want to sacrifice my will for His will. All of me for all of Him. And then letting it show for others to see.

“Spend my life Jesus, anyway You please
Whether on great things, or what seems small”

With this line, we’re saying Your perfect will in my life. No matter what it is. A complete and total surrender of our desire to have our own way. Giving up our stubbornness and selfishness. Breaking away the shackles of fear. Getting out of the boat and blindly stepping onto the water. Fully trusting that God’s got this.

“Your will done your way
Your will done your way
Your will done your way”

It couldn’t be said anymore plainer than that. His will done His way. We’d be foolish to stand in His way. We’re disobedient when we stand in His way. We miss out on blessings when we stand in His way.

I will not fight You
Take me past the line that my heart draws
I will not fight You
Take me beyond the laziness of my thoughts
I will not fight
Lead me further than I’ve gone before
I will not fight You
I’m abandoned to Your call

This is my prayer for myself. ‘Take me past the line that my heart draws’. I want to give Him every room in my heart. I want to be full of His Spirit. ‘Take me beyond the laziness of my thoughts’. I want my thought life to be on His word. On what He’s done for me. What He’s brought me through. I want my thoughts to move into actions that speak life. ‘Lead me further than I’ve gone before’. I want to go deeper. I want to go past the outer courts into the holy place. I want to drown in the Living Water. ‘I’m abandoned to Your call.’ I want His perfect will in my life. I want to live in a way that people know that I’m His.

“Do not let there be, any part of me
That’s untouchable, unreachable”

I don’t want anything to stand between me and my Lord. I want Him to have every part of my heart. I want to hear His voice. I want to be obedient. No barriers, no chains. I want to be completely free.

“Let my delight be, living out Your dreams
Washing dirty feet, and kissing yours.
God let Your dreams come true, dream through us
God let Your dreams come true through us ”

Humble me. Washing someone’s feet let alone kissing them, takes a great deal of humbleness. Feet are dirty, feet stink! No one wants to do that! But sometimes we have to go into the hard places, the dirty places. It’s there where you’ll find the people that haven’t learned to cry out to God as we Christians have. It’s there where you’ll find the people that need Him the most.

His dreams for us! What a concept! He has a dream, a purpose for each of us. His dream far outweighs anything I could ever dream of.